my delayed reply for what it's like to be obese... also an ama

TL;DR?: all the problems i had with being fat- i still have. or i have new problems.

in this topic: http://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/e0bcm/whats_it_like_to_be_an_obese_person/

i said this: "I used to weight 310 lbs and now weigh 180. Knowing what I know now I wouldn't have lost that weight. When I get home ill give a real reply. (Cell phonin at the bank)"

and a lot of people wanted my reasoning behind it.

• first the background story on how i got there and how i lost it. i played every sport every season when i was growing. basketball, soccer, baseball, football- every year. when i was in fourth grade i got this condition where i outgrew my tendons in my heels. so walking was painful and running was impossible.

so i started sitting around instead of playing sports but i still had the same appetite. by the time i was a senior in highschool i weight ~260. a year goes by and i gain another fifty pounds. ( i was homeless and living off of mcdonald donations for a while... :'( )

i decided to lose the weight when i was nineteen. working out was really hard for me to do so i went on a diet. a simple one: only drink water. don't eat anything sugary. a year later i had lost 130 lbs.

• losing all that weight made me eat less and less, eventually i dipped down to 160. for someone who's 6'2" with a 40" chest. that's fucking freak skinny. my cheeks were sunken, my hips were sticking out. etc. my body just didn't want to let me eat. i was never hungry and when i did eat i felt sick.

• i have so much extra skin it's not even funny. my stomach looks like a huge scrotum from all the wrinkles. stretch marks turn into what looks like stitching on a baseball but not red.

• now that my body has time to adjust and i eat normal meals. those meals go through me in an hour or so. when i drink something i've got half an hour until i have to piss.

• i had to buy all new clothes. i know that's normal and expected but when you have to buy new clothes every few months you begin to hate clothes. i never like anything, i can spend all day in a mall and not like a single shirt.

• all those girls that turned me down when i was fat were now all up on my nuts. i spent a long time getting rejected because i was fat, it just made me realize how shallow people are. i am literally the exact same person i was when i was fat- except for how i look. i once asked a girl if she would like me if i were 300 lbs (she didn't know the old me) she just scoffs and says "eww, no." i left instantly. stupid shallow bitch.

TL;DR?: all the problems i had with being fat- i still have. or i have new problems.

QUESTIONS FROM ORIGINAL TOPIC:: (all will be answered in regards to my former weight and my new weight)

**-How often on a daily basis do you notice that you're obese? Any emotion come with it? **

when you're fat, you notice how fat your are in everything you do. you can't grab the seatbelt and buckle yourself in one handed because your arm just doesn't reach past that fat. it's hard to tie your shoes. etc.. i wouldn't say i was sad all the time= but it definitely got to me whenever i was limited or mistreated because of my fat. i only think about being skinny when i think about my old self.

-Have you tried to lose weight? How did it go? Is it like quitting smoking where you feel urges to over-consume, or does it just feel like you're starving to death so you go back to eating as much?

*i never tried losing weight before i lost it all. i did it in one attempt. but now that i'm skinny whenever i catch myself gaining any weight i freak out and go on an extreme diet. *

-Is pooping any harder when you're obese?

no, and to those fatasses saying it's harder to wipe. spread your ass when you sit down so you have less cheek area. fucking christ, stupid fatass. ;)

-When you shower, do you actually lift layers of yourself to scrub in between?

*jam loofah under belt line, scrub, ???, profit. jk no i wasn't that fat *

-When you go out to bars or whatnot to look for women/men, do you intentionally look for other fat people? Do you actually find other obese people attractive?

i never intentionally dated fat people, but i had no problem with dating a fat girl as long as she was cute. cute eyes, cute smile, nice hair, etc. etc. basically all the things you'd look for in a skinny woman look just as good on a fat girl as long as you're not a shallow fuck.

**-If you were ever average weight, what did you think of obese people then? Now? **

when i was fat i didn't think anything about obese people other than "i'm right there with ya pal". now that i'm skinny and i see a fat person i don't care. half of america is fat. being judgmental of something that's usually out of a persons control is just ignorant. (i know you can control your weight through diet and exercise. but it's not as easy as it sounds.)

-Do you think people judge you on a daily basis for your weight? Like people on the street, bus drivers, store owners, etc.

yes. i know they did. everyone hates fat people. girls wouldn't go out with me. people picked on me. random people would just make stupid ass comments about it. hard to think of a good example but i remember one time i bought food and the cashier just said "are you sure you need this?" i almost punched him in his cockbag face.

-Are you concerned about the health risks associated with obesity? If so, what's keeping you obese?

no. i wasn't concerned. skinny people have heart attacks. skinny people get diabetes. if you're afraid of what being fat will do to you you have to be afraid of what EVERYTHING will do to you.

-What's your monthly grocery bill? Or daily caloric intake? never calculated that. still don't. but i'll tell you this much: imo calories don't matter. it's all about fats and sugars.

-What sort of stuff do I not even think about because I'm average weight that you have to deal with because of your obesity? How do you handle it?

honestly, just having everyone on earth dislike you because you're overweight. you can see it in peoples eyes.

**That was just a random string of questions. Please don't be offended by them- I'm honestly just curious about the lives of obese people.

-edit- Thank you very much to everyone who is commenting and sharing their life experiences. I see now, based on the replies, that this may be painful to talk about so I'm really appreciative that you offer us a glimpse into your world.

-edit2- Thank you a second time to all the people posting. I seriously had no idea being morbidly obese was so... shitty, to be honest. Why do you think the general public doesn't know about it?**

because the general public hates fat people, if they knew how fat people felt and what they go through they would hate them more and treat them worse.

after reading that all it may seem very contradictory to say i wouldn't have lost the weight knowing what i know now, when all i did was bitch about how bad it was being fat.

i guess being fat let me know people true intentions. now when a girl likes me i instantly just think it's because of how i look or some other fucked up motive. when you're fat you know a girl likes you for you. when someones mean to you only because you're fat you instantly know that person is a piece of shit down to their soul.

sorry for the fucked up layout and grammar. i just started typing and couldn't stop. i'll try to tidy it up a bit later if i have time.