An unsent letter from the worst point of my life

This letter was written at a time when I was considering ending my life. It's not written very well but I wasn't in a good place.

I just want to say that I have taken time to grow as a person and can see how wrong my thinking was here, but I feel like I need to share it with the world. As a tribute to the changes I've made.

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I don't really do letters. It's usually too much pressure on the reader. I'm sorry about that. I love you but I'm not sure if I deserve to say that. It hurts to hear. Especially when you don't feel the same way.

You made me want to be a different person. All of you did. Everyone has these little expectations from me. Whether or not they realized it.

It hurts so much to disappoint you. I wouldn't be writing this if it didn't.

There's no one left to blame because I've exhausted that option. When every single person you've ever loved gets tired of you then maybe it's something wrong with you.

Goodbye, I love you.