Struggling today

I’ve not really had any withdrawal symptoms, just boredom, but today I’m angry. I’m just pissed off because I really want a drink, and I’m a grown up who can go anywhere and buy a drink, but I know what happens next. It’s not dealing with social pressure today, it’s coming from inside. It feels like I’m holding my breath and need to exhale and the only way to do that is with a drink. I want it so bad, but I won’t. IWNDWYT.