I never actively wanted this for myself

I posted this as a comment on a childfree Facebook page and I thought many of you could relate.

I never actively wanted it. I simply assumed I would do it someday. I am driven to find connection with other people, but I've never actively wanted this kind of connection. If I ever did talk about it when I was growing up, it would always be in this hypothetical way and I saw it as something that wasn't going to happen for a long time, so I just didn't think about it. I remember being 15 or 16 and talking to the guy I liked and he said something about doing something with his future kid. I said, "Your future what?" and he said, "my kid". And I was like, "Oh..." and in my mind, I was thinking, "You're in high school, why are we talking about that? Can't we talk about music or something?" I think that may have been an inkling about decisions that were yet to be made.