Haven’t eaten in a few days, want to get myself back on track, but I’m scared of eating again.

Asking for help.

I really, really hate my body and can’t help the urge to be smaller, but I know at my core that this disorder is destroying me. I don’t want to be like this anymore. I want to be better than this. My ED has taken everything from me before and I don’t want it to happen again.

I went a week or two of eating somewhat normally but I’ve fallen flat on my face again. I’m so scared of how slowed down my metabolism might be from starving for so long but I know I need to start eating again whether or not I want to.

Just here to ask for some encouragement, reassurance, and reasons to eat, I guess.

Update: I ate. I’m now considerably hungrier than I was before I ate.