Our First Anniversary As A Married Couple...

...and we are divorced. This time last year, I was afraid because my life was changing forever. I was afraid because i didn’t know if i may be making a mistake, but i loved him dearly. i thought to myself: how could i be making a mistake? i’m marrying the love of my life. Sure, he’s got a temper.. but that’s my fault. i need to stop pushing him so much and i need to give him the space he needs whenever he asks for it. i need to be better about listening to him and being obedient to his needs and wants so his temper won’t be so bad. Sure, he puts his family, friends, and hobbies above me... but he works hard throughout the week and he only has a couple days off and i shouldn’t be selfish or get my feelings hurt when he wants to spend more time with his sister or his dad or friends or even when he wanted to go golfing or stay home and play video games all day/night. it was selfish and rude of me to ask for even just a little bit of time with my husband.. i should’ve known better.

Hahaha. i can’t help but laugh now thinking about the horrifying spell i was under while i was with him. i truly believed everything was my fault... but i’m still feeling a bit down today. i was scared on my wedding day, but i was also excited as i thought i was marrying the love of my life.. my best friend. my divorce is still so fresh and my heart is still so broken over this whole situation.