Update

So I told my crush how I felt and this is basically what happened

Me: Hey do you have a sec

Him: sup

Me: Hey, so uh I'm sorry if I sound stupid or anything but I have something to say

Him: huh?

Me: Alright basically I may or may not have a thing... 4 u & I've been putting it off too long and I just wanted to get it over and done with. I understand if you dont tho, I just wanted to get this over and done with because it's been bugging me. Apologizes.

Him: oh no worries

Him: I'm flattered ty

Me: thanks. And you're welcome Me: Yeah just had to get that off my chest

He left me on read after. Clearly this isn't the guy God wants me to be with. But what I don't understand is why I have so much dreams of him, liked him on and off for 7 years, thinking he might be the one... Any idea why God put me through this? At the same time, I'm really happy because I have the weight lifted off me and I don't even think I want him to respond to me again. I feel like I would be happier not being with him. I don't even know if he is fully Christian anymore. I guess I fell in love with the old version of him, because now he has changed so much and I think it would affect me. Any ideas? Thanks & god bless.

Thank you everyone for the on going support! I'm glad I'm not the only one who has experienced this, I understand why all this happened in the end. Ik it will all be worth it. Please if you have a crush on someone it's best to tell them now ! God is with you always!