2 Fast 2 Narcissistic

It's mainly a vent as it's been causing a few sleepless nights recently of utter rage!

I just got out of a 4 year relationship with a narcissist and I kept noticing mannerisms and delusions my mother had. She(Ex) knew my Mother had mental issues and knew some of the things she would regularly pull on me and anytime I mentioned concerns it would be thrown back at me.

Honestly, everything is just hitting me now. Day after day tiny things remind me of stuff I just naturally ignored from my ex and wound up back in the "must be my fault" bullshit bubble I was in during my youth. The day after I told her we wouldn't work out, and I said I needed some space, she sent me 22 messages within 1 hour and 2 missed calls accusing me of plotting all of this from the start to abandon her. 5 of those messages were deleted before I could see them, so I'll never know the depth of her depravity that night nor do I care to.

The week I was in my home state seeing family, she argued I wasn't giving her enough attention. The day before I left, she screamed at me over the phone about how I wasn't being abused and my brother quote, "Told her everything I told to him."

I returned home after contemplating this ichor she spewed at me after telling her how my dying grandmother and hoarder parents are doing( I was visiting to check on some family members health and see how their house was doing. Bad, it was doing bad). I greeted her kindly with the same mask I show my mother. The care was empty but sounded full, the smile was mastered over many uses. I laughed, we talked about nothing until I could ask someone one question. My brother, if he did speak to her.

Fast forward to my first break at work and I decide to make a call. It was weather short. My brother hadn't spoken to her in 4 months and expressed concerns about her habits previously. He was raised by my bio dad who is also a narcissist. He's a whole other beast. Never met him until 6 years ago.

Anyway, I luckily had an appointment with my therapist that very day and went to her with my detailed plan of ending the relationship. I just wanted to know of anything I should prepare for or suggestions. She suggested I get a friend to join me and I did. The decision to end that relationship was the best one I've made in 4 years.

TLDR: My nMom and Ex are teaming up to go undercover for the U.S. Customs Service to bring down drug lord Carter Verone in exchange for the erasure of their past transgressions.