Day 11- My sense of self is on trial

Been smoking for 3.5 years before this. A few years back, I made the realization that I don't know what "I" really am, and I was left feeling confused. This confusion has pretty much stuck with me, all the while I was smoking/dabbing my brains out. It got to the point where I could easily smoke a gram of dab every 2 days, something had to change.

So here I am, 11 days sober. As a substitute for smoking, I've been focusing on meditation and introspection, as well as reading about the nature of the ego and the self. Through my recent sobriety, I've finally had the clarity to realize something about the nature of "I":

When you feel confused about what you are, then you are thinking too hard. An understanding of "yourself" is nothing that you can achieve through thinking. You already are yourself, and this is undeniably proven by the fact that you exist. Thinking and confusion are just an extra layer that's been added on top of the already-present state of existing, a layer that muddies and confuses the source of being.

When you think about it, all sources of unhappiness stem from these unnecessary extra "layers" that we stack on top of our natural, peaceful, state of existence. I think weed has a tendency to separate us from our natural state of being in the present moment. When I was smoking daily, I was always caught up in these layers of thought and confusion, not realizing that happiness was simply beneath it all. I just wasn't paying attention cuz I was constantly stoned.