An interesting title

Yes, I did put an interesting title. But anyways the main thing that I wanted to talk about is talking to someone. I feel lonely, I do have best friends but I feel like I can't talk to them about it, they wouldn't understand. Every day I wished I had someone to talk to about my problems, I know that I could talk to some strangers about but, I just don't feel... comfortable I guess that's way to describe it. There is one person that I do want to tell, I know this sounds corny but it's my crush. I've talked to her before, but she kind of stopped you know, responding, I assume it's because she's busy, because she would always come up to me at school and start a conversation??? I want to text her and talk to her, but I don't (most likely assuming bc I always think people are annoyed of me) think she wants to talk to me anymore. And now I'm just sitting here, typing this, and thinking what the hell am I doing with my life. Also I know this has nothing to do with self harm (well kind of, I do want to talk to someone about my self harm, problems, etc) I just didn't know where to post this, I'm sorry.