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so ive been on T for about 2 years. I never had any interest in mAsterbAtiNG until recently, like.. A few months. I get dysphoria sometimes, only when its hard to just, get off. It’d be easier if I have an actual dick, but it is what it is. I use an eletric razor without the shavey part to stimulate mysELf. It works in a certain spot, but sometimes that doesnt even work.. Maybe cuz it overstimulates. I’m not old enough to buy a proper vibrator, and even as close as I am to my mom, I don’t wanna go up to her and be like “Hey, I have some troubles masterbating, can we buy me a vibrator?”

I don’t have much growth, but using my hand doesn’t work very well. I’ve tried other ways to feel pleasure, even before I came out as trans or even knew I was trans. Like, fingering. It just hurt. And it sucks because the T makes me get horny easily. I wanna just, experiment but it’s not easy to do that at my age.

Anyways, anyone know any other ways or techniques? Or maybe how to buy something like a vibrator online without my mom knowing? Sorry if this was too NSFW.