The thought of doing nothing meaning over summer break is making me nervous.

I'm a 22 year old male broke as college student from a low income backround. I did apply to be an Aupair and even passed believing for a fact I would not even hear a word from them. But lo behold they did and even passed there first interview!

Now I have to apply to be a host family but unfortunately it's in China, far from Wuhan dough. I'm leaning towards not going but who else would give my low income ass a chance like this. I could pull double shifts easily for the expenses without my parents putting in a dime. It seems selfish to think about going to China when people are dying there.

I preety much have a second lease on life from something that happened to me 3 years ago and obsessed about it for 2 years, everyday wanting to know if I had something medically debilitating which in the end I did not.

Even if I can't go to China. I don't have the money or anything else needed to do anything it freaking sucks. I choose to go I won't be able to save money for rent(They pay for my classes not rent off campus) and the 6 month lease won't be done by then. I know I live in a bubble where college aged people are treated like children(unrelated a bit I know) but I just want to get out of that and that of where I grew up in.