M4A 22 year old white guy who loves BLACKED here, looking to chat or roleplay w Black M or white F

It's a little personal battle I fight every time I want to watch porn: whatever you do, don't nut to Blacked again. Find a good video of something else, maybe white m/black f video since I tell myself it's the contrast I love, but the whole time I just know in the back of my head how much more turned on I'd be if I just bit the bullet and loaded up that hottest of forbidden fruits. It has such a strong pull, and my hesitation to enjoy it only strengthens its allure. It rarely takes much before I'm there again, in my chair, white dick in hand and a huge messy load all over myself as my monitor displays a big fat white ass bouncing up and down on a black guy at least twice my size. Damn, did it again.