i cut again after 6 years

i just did it now. i dont know why, its been on my mind for a few days but i thought id be able to resist it. it didnt hurt at all i hardly put any pressure but the marks are very much there :( im not sure why i relapsed now but i can tell things are gonna be hard after this. my boyfriend knows that i used to sh in the past but im not sure how he’ll react that ive done it now. hes out of the country for 2 weeks and i hope the cuts fade before he gets back because im scared of how he’ll react. i know he wont be angry but i dont want him to worry about me.

does anyone have any advice on how i can resist this urge? now that ive done it im scared i’ll continue. this is my first post on this subreddit and im very new to reddit in general so im not sure if im allowed to go into anymore details i just wanted to vent my feelings a bit.