First Time DXM 250 mg low 2nd plat trip report (140 lbs)

(Sorry for all the bashing I did to DXM in the beginning lol. I hadn’t been high off anything in like a week and a half and I decided to trip after a 3 hr driver’s ed class so I was in a pretty bad mood. Also apologies for the terrible DXM influenced spelling/grammar)

11:08 - I’m starting this like an hour after i downed a 118 ml 20mg dxm/ 200 mg guaf per 10 ml bottle of CVS DM Tussin and i feel like shit. I just got over the nausea and rn I just feel really dizzy w a heavy body load i’m super hot. Also that cough syrup tastes like BOOTY holy shit. I have a huge headache and am super dizzy and just want to listen to music and play apex but my airpods won’t connect to my laptop :(.

11:23 - i@‘ getting the music appreciation i get with weed but this it’s different. instead of music feeling really spatial and cool it sounds distorted and like in a tube. i have no control of any motor functions whatsoever i’m barely making chai rn while listening to yung lean

11:27 - my whole perception is like really distant and idrk what’s going on. this is the dirtiest and fogiest type of high i’ve ever had. it’s not like it feels particularly good but it doesn’t feel that bad either. rn it just feel likes i crossfaded off of shitty beer and weed.

11:28 - irdk what’s going on rn

11:31 - everything is like way too bright

11:34 - my vision is super foggy. the one noticeably good thing about this substance is that it doesn’t feel like it comes and goes in waves like w weed it feel like a constant thing. it’s not like a “high” sort of feeling like w weed, i just feel really confused and kind of chill. like with weed everything just seems really great and enhanced and chill, this kind of feels like everything is just warped and weird. i could come to school like this.

11:42 - my chai looks like abstract art and my hand feels so big. this is such a bummer high.

11:43 - what if the problem isn’t w the drug but whwat if the problem is with me what if i’m just changing as a person and i don’t really like chnage bro whay

11:44 - i havent smoked weed in a brick so hopefully weed isn’t like this now for me too. i don’t think it is i just think dxm is a really different and kind of shittier high.

11:45 - when i’m high off weed i have a good sense of time. like my time perception changes but i can still understand the concept of time. rn tho i can’t even tell if time has passed. like i remember i was just watching a critikal video, but i can’t remember if i finished it 20 minutes ago or 2 minutes ago. idek what minutes are. dissociatives are some other shit. this doesn’t feel worse than weed really it just feels a lot different and idk if that’s in a good way yet bc i can’t really comprehend much rn.

12:02 - listening to some alpha waves. when i listen to alpha waves off weed i feel really focused in but off of this it just increases my cinfusion.

12:08 - i feel like i’m in the bebop

12:10 - listening to sigur ros. i feel at peace.

12:16 - i take it back dxm is pretty great. i don’t recognize my body or my voice anymore. nothing in my environment feels real and present.

12:17 - i think i’m experiencing mild ego death. i don’t recognize my own life anymore. it’s like when i think about my life, i realize i’m a person, but who am i. i can’t pin down a personality or anything. candy doesn’t feel chewy it feels like it’s melting.

12:29 - i feel like i can be more honest with myself

12:49 - i’ve been listening to sigur ros on discord w a friend who just smoked a joint, i feel like i’m viewing my life through a magnifying glass

1:91 - cevs are intense. when i’m off gas it’s like this transform in 3d but rn they’re transforming in 4d.

1:36 - mushishi and cowboybevop and great on the come down

1:51 - have come down to a considerable degree. about to gt bed. tl;dr of my first trip: at first the dissociative experience was very confusing and kind of frustrating to me because I was so new to it, but as the trip progressed I grew to embrace it more.

i’m pretty happy with this trip bc i’ve been trying to experiment with psychedelic-esque drugs for a while and this is the first one i’ve tried that’d really worked (tried LSA and other natural alternatives prior to this). the preparation for the trip also required me to go off of my ssris for a bit which helped me realize that i actually felt a lot happier off my meds so that’s something i’m going to talk to my psychiatrist about. I also learned a lot about myself through the brief and very mild ego-death experience I had. I will definitely be exploring dissociatives again. Thinking about increasing my dosage to 500 mg dxm next time maybe.