my dear brother,

you might have noticed changes in me and my thinking ways throughout the years. i’ve been having a hard time. i’m sorry for not telling you about how i feel. but i’ll finally tell it. i don’t want to continue.. i’m not sure if you know but i’m abused at home by our dad and it’s not easy being a target at school either. don’t worry, i lost the ability to really feel anything a long time ago.

do you remember when we were younger and you taught me to ride the bike? oh, or when we put the air mattress on water and started paddling? i miss the days when we would go to see our great-grandma and we were so excited to go buy pokemon cards.

you’ve taught me so much in life. one of them was to never give up. i don’t think i’m exactly listening to your advice regarding that. i’m so happy that you’ve succeeded in life. you have a stable, well paying job that you like to do. you have great relationships with people. i’m so so happy for you. i know you’re going to have a great family, you’re the friendliest person i have ever known.

i know this might not be easy for you to read.. i’m so sorry.. your little sister is not happy here.. don’t be sad.. don’t grieve after me, that’s what i would want you to do. don’t be so mad at our parents, because in the end their part in this was not big.. it was me who decided to do this.

i will always remember you as the best big brother ever ❤️ goodbye

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