Difference between the art you make and the art you love.

I wanted to make a post about this because earlier today I was looking at some of my favorite art in the world, anime backgrounds. When I paint what comes naturally for me the subject matter tends to bend towards darker things which for the most part I am perfectly fine with but every once in awhile I get artist envy. I think “ I wish I was Kazuo Oga” when I look at ghibli backgrounds. Not technically wise (don’t get me wrong he’s a master) but subject matter wise. It’s obvious what he paints are things he loves. I say all this because recently I gave myself permission ( ridiculous I know) to just love the things I love even if it’s something that is the polar opposite of my work and I have no intent of pursuing that style or way of working. Granted that’s no to say I don’t occasionally paint cute little landscapes for myself but I’ve accepted the fact that it’s just not something I’d be capable of doing long term and being happy. Do any of you have any similar feelings or see art or artist you love but you know you either just don’t work that way or wouldn’t be happy working that way for longer periods? Obviously people change and who’s to say what we’re gonna paint like tomorrow but I’d love to hear if anyone has had similar experiences or feelings.