Problematic Expression

Julia

It’s so damn hard to lay you on paper, Julia

I’m not fully aware of how deep you are, Julia

It’s truly a shame the way everything went, Julia

cause peculiarly Julia I’m not full of you yet

 

No, not just quite yet

 

Sydney

Given time I think I’d find

a way to tell you clearly

But even then, we would pretend

that we both spoke sincerely

 

If I could find a way to say

The thoughts within me, Sydney

Then maybe signs could shine a light

On how to get you near me

 

Nope

 

Taylor

Taylor won’t you talk to me

Softly through your teeth?

Tell me all about your day

Talk me into sleep

 

Lull me in with lovely lies

Languish me with blue

Lonely words will light my night

In teal and lilac hues

 

I try to talk but stutter, trip on the tongue, loose mobility in my usually loose lips, searching for rounded words to reach you, Taylor.

 

Fuck this.

 

Scattered Thoughts of You

I heard you humming

A song yesterday

I don’t know what it was;

But it’s my favorite now

And my mind plays it on repeat

 

How do I get you out of my head

And onto this page?

Why can't I take the you inside me

And make you of ink and paper?

How many names will I have to give you?

How many times will I have to rhyme?

 

I sit and stare at a blank page

Write, erase, write, edit, erase

 

None of it is good enough

None of it feels like you

No matter what words I use

It doesn’t feel like you

 

Is it possible I can't construct you out of simile and metaphor?

But isn’t that all language is?

And then what is this?

Then what are you? And what am I?

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