My GF broke up with me and idk about my college anymore.

I've been dating this girl for 8 months and it was 7 amazing months. It went downhill when she started to ignore me and the gifts I have her. It hurted alot because I wasn't really given a reason for being ignored. There were times when we were together and she still wouldn't talk to me and stuff. I was in a very bad place and then it happened, we broke up. She wasn't able to maintain a relationship with me because of her mental health and she finally gave me a reason for ignoring me ( which gave me closure somewhat ) and couldn't maintain a long distance relationship especially since we are supposed to start college. Now everything has been a blur , I've tried so many things to make myself busy , happy. It just doesn't work, I tried making a game to distract myself , I just got tired and more frustrated.

I tried playing games with my friends but with my current house , my parents sleep opposite to my room and can hear whenever I play and talk to them on call and they don't like that so they force me to stop playing. It's all so difficult just to be in peace now .

I've been looking for colleges, colleges which I want to go to but they all somehow have most of the seats reserved for the course I want and I don't even know anymore about the course I want. It's just so hard , it's fucking painful. I just want to be happy and okay with myself. I want to be content with myself. Please just help and advice me to a better path.