Bored af SOOOOOO BORED BORED BOREDB ORTED
Hello guys,
Just me trying to vent somehow i'm so fucking pissed off for some reason maybe with myself but I haven't relapsed yet but just today im feeling so shit, so fucking shit and I just feel like fapping but when I think about my goals I don't want to.
aaaaaaaaah fuck fuck fuckfuckcudc kdufvkcfkc fucffuck fuckf I just wanna give myself some closure, bottling emotions up on yourself is the worst thing you can do.
idk if I will fap or not, I probably won't since I keep thinking about goals when I do so, I want to preserve my energy and my vision in order to make it a reality.
fuck this bullshit desire that was placed inside of us, it's just our strength for motivation, goals but also our motherfucking weakness.
Fucking god, such a stupid idea; of all the ways you could possibly go about it, it had to be this way.
Personally God is a retard in my eyes and I just don't see eye to eye with how he does things in this world or anything at all.
SO yea fuick him and fuck this bullshit desire.
Fuck my emotions, it's always because I keep bottling my emotions that somehow I just feel so down one day and boom it happens.
Sorry I have to vent somehow, so fucking angry at practically myself and just with the way things are.
Will stay strong, gl gg wp
Posted May 13, 2020, 3:01 AM UTC
Boredom is what led us to fap in the first place, it leads to self pity and then depression, and then anger and then hate then destruction. Stay strong soldier this isnt meant to be easy, that's why many people cant. You're already in the elite category keep on swimming hang in there. Everything passes move through the water.
Yeah, thanks; reading your post just gave me reassurance that this isn't the way to go.
I was really considering and fighting in my head as to whether or not to give in just once, just that sweet once to give myself abit of relief.
But then i thought of my goals and your post, you're right it's not worth it, it will indefinitely lead to those things you listed above.
Imma just go sleep, gotta hang in there.
Thanks and gn8