i shouldnt be allowed to text ppl
like im rereading that shit now an its 10time worse than i already thought it was i would kindly advice myself to never do that ever again n like maybe off myself idk i fuckin hate myself how can i be so awkward
Posted May 13, 2020, 4:51 AM UTC
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What happen here
ugh its real bad like i been ghosting this guy i had like the biggest crush on cus i had a big ass manic episode due to polydrug use n like it ended me in jail for a couple days and then a fuckin psych ward and i gained hella weight off the antypsychotic cus like they do that yk and last time he saw me i was a lil qt so i was like no way he seeing my ass like that. so like i texted him about it and we talked for a bit And then like i kinda think he thought like im thirsty for his ass idk fuckin started chatting shit about like fucking me and alla that and i told him bruh next time we link shits gonna be hella awkward. like i said a lot of embarrasing stuff but this just proves me once again that like i thought we had some kinda spark cus i was rly vibing w him but he just wants to fuck like everyone else n shit hurts i jus wanna love someone why r ppl like this T_T
Bruh sounds like u needa wait on the relationship and just work on urself rn its easier to find a long tern relationship when ur in good mental and physical health just for now play around some and enjoy life a bit
im aware like i would never get into anything before i fix myself up yk like if i cant handle myself how could i ever handle anybody else i was just kinda venting and like it fuckin hurt man cus i thought the feeling was mutual but nahh he just sees me as another hole🙃
Nah I gotcha I gotcha just making sure u know, aint easy finding love in a sex filled world