I just smoked some weed after a 6-month break, and I just remembered my forgotten wisdom.

Some might call it induced paranoia, but I call it "remembering while high"; refiring those neural pathways and reliving those experiences again.

To be fair, I was an almost daily vape user for the last 10 years, but I recently took a break while I look for a new job. I decided today to take a small toke after missing it.

I am remembering just how unjust the world is. I left my job because I was too stressed. I was binge drinking and ending up hospitalized. Trading my sanity for money.

I remember that now I'm on a substitute chemical pill and was diagnosed bipolar, thus forever giving me a label. I remember being super skeptical about this at the beginning, thinking this is how they brainwash you and numb you, and make you forget.

Turns out I did forget over time. Sure, this chemical takes aways the lows, and the highs, but it also makes me say "meh" about the injustices about the world.

Can I do anything about it? I guess not. There is truth to this and I just need to live life and find a job, and not be paralyzed. But weed makes me question these things; and this is bad for the system we live in. Society needs good little cogs in the machine.

Weed has always been a psychedelic for me in strong doses, especially after doing LSD and shrooms, but even after the first time I tried it. It's a state of mind and thinking that I enjoy, a state of analyzing the world. I'm connected to my emotions while on it. I also tend to see the bullshit propaganda that's pushed on the TV and media jump out at me so much easier when I'm high.