guilty about abdl feelings towards non-abdls

throwaway for obvious reasons, but does anyone ever feel guilty for having abdl-related feelings about child/baby things that non-abdl adults engage in? for example, many non-abdl people sleep with stuffed animals from childhood, have oral fixations, or are incontinent (and those are only a few examples, but you get the idea). I've always been fascinated by "normal" people who do these sorts of things or have these traits, but I feel guilty because it comes from my abdl-ness, and I know that for them it's (probably) a completely vanilla part of their life. I would never bring up abdl stuff with a "normal" person on the basis of these sorts of things alone, but I hate that it even lights up the abdl part of my brain; my interest almost feels perverted, even though it rarely comes from actually being turned on in a sexual way (clearly it turns on something emotionally). does anyone else experience this or something like it? how do you cope with it? thanks for reading.