I sabotaged my webcam on my gaming laptop, it's the second time I've done it

I'm highly addicted to mutual masturbation on certain sites. The novelty of all the girls & the excitement of them being actual real girls... That's a perfect formula for addiction. I've been spending hours a day edging on those sites, finding girls, masturbating with & over girls, a lot of them love watching and making you cum, & many also get off & cum by watching you. Last night after finishing I just got a drawpin & destroyed my integrated HD webcam on my very expensive gaming laptop. I don't want to masturbate or watch porn, but the excitement, the pleasure is so intense. Even now a part of me is deeply regretting breaking my webcam & is screaming with rage. Then there's a quieter part of me who knows I did the right thing. Just God forbid the other part of me buys a new webcam. I wasted too many hours on those sites & messed up my brain enough. It's time to recover and be free of this addiction, no matter how much I don't want to let go of it... I simply can't moderate it.