First time after a festival. Always thought I was straight until that night...

I had gay sex once. It was after a night at a festival and you could say I was pretty high at the time of some white. I never really had the urge to have sex with a man until that night. But I was very drunk and high and so decided in a split moment to download grindr. I was with my friends in a very busy late bar.

After about 10 minutes a guy asked me come over lol, I didnt know the app was promiscuous I guess idk the best way to say it. I usually would never just go straight to a strangers house but I was feeling horned to a new level and I wanted to try something new. I had never even never gotten with a guy in any sense before that night. I was in a straight relationship for a number of years up until a month before the festival.

Anyway, I got a cab to the house and there he was letting me in. I was very nervous and he could tell. He brought me up to his room and said to lay down. He said dont be so shy and as he very quickly was laying beside me. He surely knew I was drunk. Then I told him that Im not gay and have never had sex with a man before. He was surprised and then understood my nervousness. He told me to relax and said it'll be fun and then he kissed me. I kissed him back and he rolled over on top of me. I couldnt believe what I was doing but it felt fine and I started to get comfortable. He then pulled my pants down and started to feel my cock as he spat on it. It felt so good and I was rock hard. He gave a great blowjob and then fliipped me on me back and started to rim me. Fuck I felt good now and it felt do raunchy lol I was new to rimming.

I was scared for the next part. He said to relax as he pulled his cock out. At this point I was extremely horny and I started to suck his cock. Having a cock in your mouth feels great. I probably gave a shit blowjob lol. He then put me on my back and started to slip his cock in. He felt quite big at the time and it was sore but it felt good pretty soon as I relaxed and after that he fucked me so good. It was the best feeling I've ever felt. Better than any sex I had before. He put me on all fours and fucked me in front of the mirror and honestly it felt so hot. He then came inside me (he had a condom) and it felt great by giving someone such great pleasure. We took a break and after a while he said do you wanna fuck me? I never thought I would but i did then and I enjoyed it but preferred being fucked. I couldnt finish inside so I took off the condom and I got an intense feeling to swallow my cum so he flipped me up so my cock was right above my mouth. I eventually came all over my face and he kissed me then. It was all amazing up until I came.

More or less an hour later I left at like 6am and went back to the apartment where my friends were staying. I made up an excuse that I got with someone and a weird moment happened where they asked who it was and I said idk, and one said it wasnt a guy was it? I laughed it off as did the others. That freaked me out as I thought it was such a bizarre question to ask. Anyway we went to the festival that day again and it was a great day. Ever since though I feel overwhelming guilt unless I feel horny. So that is very confusing for me. This happened a year ago now and Im still unsure what to make of it. Its the only time I've been with a guy, despite chasing the feeling a couple of time while high and confident. Thanks for reading, it took me while to be able to write this.