Let me get through this cultural activity so I can get back to drinking

I’ve been a lot of places, seen a lot of amazing things. However, today was the first time I did an awesome activity - kayaking ocean sea caves - without One or all of the following: 1. Drinking beforehand 2. Sneaking or bringing drinks with me 3. Anxiously waiting for it to be over so I can get back to the bar 4. Counting this as my cultural activity for the day so I could get drunk without you know, having a “problem”

I remember it becoming a joke. Let’s get through this XYZ activity so we can start drinking. “Getting through” has made my memories murky, and honestly disrespectful of the opportunities I have been given or earned to get there.

I conquered my fear of open water, and had a great time, fully present, and 100% sober.

In case I ever thought XYZ would be more fun drinking, (Or have thoughts of hey this isn’t as fun sober or would be more fun drinking) it really never was.