My nmother emailed me today from my efather's email and told me that there is a good chance my efather could have cancer... I don't know how to even feel right now.

She said on a level of 1 being great and a 5 being more than likely, he's a 4. I am 35. We just went no contact at the beginning of the year, because of a huge argument with my immediate/extended family. I am the scapegoat. Everything is my fault, right? My nmom runs the show. My efather has only said a couple statements to me since, on my birthday last month. The only way in, is through her. I can't say I'm not sad or I haven't cried about it. But I just don't even know how to feel. I'm upset. But I can't figure out if I'm more upset over everything or mad about the fact he couldn't even reach out himself. It's frustrating trying to figure out how to feel about it all. I don't know if I should respond. Is this another game? And if so, why? I know how they treated me... but he's still my father. It's really hard even typing this out. Any advice would be appreciated.