It's alright that you wont read this...[garbage rant]

Posting everywhere and I really don't care.

I don't think I will ever be able to be well. I never understood people. Every time I speak, garbled nonsense comes out. The computer was and still is my only friend. The only one I can tell my secrets to at least.

I could try to find an activity; a purpose beyond people. Drawing would be fun. I could take classes and such. But people would be there and I would find someway to feel like shit. In the end it would just be a waste of time and money.

At this point in time, I despise people. Well, happy people. I hate their optimism so much it makes me shiver. I envy their steadfast vision and love for life. Apathy took that from me early on.

If you're still reading, I apologize for ruining your day. Have a wonderful life, because I sure wont.