Whinge/ rant/ support

I thought things were looking up for me! Although I hate my (now ex) gyno, she had put me on the right meds for me. I changed my diet and have had such good health for a year now. Well, good health comparatively to when my endo symptoms have been really bad. I've been fairly pain free, physically active etc. (I still can't shift my stupid weight gain though)

But over the last few months I've just been feeling "off" with some random pains coming back and weird digestive issues. My current GP is awesome and supportive so I made an appointment with her. I was thinking "aww I just feel like such a hypochondriac. Am I just wasting my time when there isn't anything specifically I can point to?" But then I started shitting blood right before my appointment (yah I am not a hypochondriac?? /s sad face).

So now I am booked in for a colonscopy, blood tests, the works.. Which is good. I am so lucky to have access to good health care. But honestly? I just don't want to be sick. I feel so sad and dissappointed at needing extra proceedures and health care. I've spent so much time feeling shit and I thought I was on top of it. I just want to live my best life.