Anyone feels depression when just starting NoFap?

I'm feeling very weird... I've just started NoFap 3 days ago and my mind is a strange place right now, I feel like I've just lost a huge crutch I'd use everytime, like I'm actually missing something, dont want to sound/be a pathetic loser but it feels like this "letting go" of porn has given me "depression" I know how stupid that sounds JFL

I feel like walking the tight rope, like I can be good, be clean and live cleanly but at the same time I feel like I can fall anytime, it just takes something triggering, a thought, an image, a flashback, triggering text

My brain feels empty..? at the moment, since it was showered in excesive dopamine on a daily basis, now it's shocked, it's nothing there anymore, and at times it panics, I feel my heartbeat go up and get kinda anxious

Basically I feel like I've lost something (comforting) to do, and it's scary realizing how little I've got going on in my life without it, my body feels awesome, down there (hehe) looks healthier and I'm feeling good, but feel this huge emptiness inside me and it's very scary, it's scary knowing that when I face adversity I won't be able to fap it all away, to "meh I'll just fap and go to sleep, whatever" I'll have to go actually face the emotions and that's really scary

I also hate to think that I'll never have a healthy balanced sexual life, I often think that if I have sex eventually, It'll be way too hot for me to handle and that that'll be triggering for me and spiral down porn addiction binge again, I don't want that, I want to feel turned on when the situation requires it and to control my sex drive when not in need, I also don't know if I'll ever lose my virginity

I feel like I either function with 0 sex stimulation at all or coping with porn, I don't know how to handle ocasional (real) sex without going back all in and binging

And it's also very weird, because I've felt immense bursts of motivation this week and my workouts have been next level, the increased testosterone is magic, the drive and motivation is magic, but also the constant anxiety of "I might relapse" and the feeling of emptiness in my life is brutal

Help bros