Why do I (26M) feel worse and more anxious after a 2nd date with her (25F)?

So I’ve made lots of posts on this already, but more keeps coming to my mind.

So I’ve been talking to this girl on Bumble since March. Went for a first date in July, had our 2nd date last night. Busy schedules and all. I like her, I really do, which sucks because it’s still early and I lose leverage I suppose. I don’t want to get hurt. I’ve been able to be open with her much more than I am with other people, including my own family and admit things that I never admit to others, and she’s been receptive and understanding. But I want to keep being cautious.

I like her so much I’m willing to put aside the hurt feelings I had when she admitted she just had sex with a fling like 2-3 weeks ago. We had a video call about sex and everything and that’s where we learned a lot about each other, but no real dealbreakers (I’m very sexually inexperienced and have only had sex with one person, she’s had sex with a few more but nothing crazy or shocking. It’s just unease and uncomfortableness, but I can live with it).

Our 2nd date was fun. Got to try ramen and sushi for the first time, and also got to try some good Korean desserts, and just talk and spend time with a girl I care about. All in all, I think the date was good. She seems to think so too, I think. She’s mentioned wanted to go to an art museum we both enjoy next week, and some other dates, and also showing her my new place I just bought during the day on a future weekend.

But even with all this, I felt really boring during the date. She’s amazingly well travelled, and cultured and what not, and I’m 26 and really just only feel like I’m starting to live my life now. I was very sheltered growing up and didn’t experience a lot of life because of living with my parents. But I feel like the longer we date, the more she’ll realize I’m boring af. I’m down to try a lot of new things in my life, even if I’m deathly afraid I’ll screw them up or look bad and embarrass myself in front of her.

I also feel clueless in terms of like physical escalation and contact. I’m a much more slow moving person than she is, evidenced by our sex talk. We had some raunchy video chats this week.. but on dates I’m so self conscious about being respectful and not wanting to make people uncomfortable and like respecting boundaries and what not. I don’t know how to escalate physical contact, or casually touch her, or go for a kiss. This is only the 2nd girl I’ve really dated, and at the end of the 2nd date we just had two really long hugs, and I just psyched myself out of thinking if I should ask or go for a kiss or not. I generally don’t know how these things go. And maybe if we have the third date next week she might lose interest if I don’t go for a kiss or something.

I have hella anxiety over this and I want this to work and potentially grow, but idk if she’s still interested or thinks I’m boring or thinks I’m lame and a wimp for not going for a kiss or something. I don’t know how to ease my mind. She’s in another state this weekend visiting friends so I literally will be spending my weekend with my own thoughts while also moving all my stuff to my new house. Idk what to think anymore. I kind of don’t want to do this.

TL;DR - I feel more anxious after date 2 with great girl. How do I stop this?