Have no idea how to talk to my close ones about my BPD

Im still learning about myself, this sub helped me a lot in pointing out what bothers me. But my family and friends have no clue what I'm going through. I tried explaining (which was so hard, I get so detached and emotionless when I talk to people about my mental health, while crying like a baby each time I'm alone) and tried recommending reading about it, especially for my family. But they literally don't give a damn lol even though they trigger me on daily basis without noticing and it just hurts, I don't want to be alone but being around people that just don't understand me feels even more lonely... How do I break the cycle? How do I make people notice me? I really feel that sometimes I need special attention I am really just trying my best to cope, be a good friend and make my mom proud, I just wish they could see that ♥️