Halloween has me thinking abt him

We had over two years of something very intense, but there were two opportunities for Halloween and I didn't experience either with him. I just can't help but wonder about what he might be for it. Which girls around him will seduce him, what costumes they'll be wearing; the success they could feel that their attempts to look hot worked!! and they pulled a guy!!!

I wonder if the holiday has reminded him of me too, but probably not. I love costumes, I always wished we could do a couples costume. He was never that into it. Anyway, I guess that I hope he can maybe learn to be enthusiastic for someone else's sake. Not so that he can become better for me, not because I am completely happy yet with the idea of him moving on... it's more like, I don't want a guy like that going around making other girls feel bad. I learned my lesson but I'm the only one who has to learn it from him, I guess. Other people don't deserve to be upset, I didn't either. I hope he changes, and I guess I hope that his Halloween is fun.