Feeling lost

Hey everyone,

I don't really know where to begin. I'm in this weird place where I simultaniously hate and love myself. I am proud of some of my accomplishments but at the same time I critizise myself for not being better. One of my biggest problems is that I'm wasting most of my time on social media. I want to do so many different things but at the same time I'm not really interested in them and I have the feeling that I would like myself to do them just because. I don't enjoy the things I used to, but at the same time I don't want to quit them. I feel like I have no really close relationship to anyone. I have friends and family but I would only share a limited amount about myself. I don't know if it's just puberty or what. When I come home after school and I still have time for things I just lie in my bed for at least 2 hours. I procrastinate until I can't anymore.

I'm just rambeling I know but I just wanted to ask if anyone has gone through this phase too? How can I motivate myself to do anything? How can I have meaningful releationships when I normally keep everything on surface level. How can I improve my appearance because that's something I want to become better at (starting to do my hair and make-up etc?). I feel like puberty has just knocked everything over and if it was up to me I would want to move away to a completly new city and start over. I know that my situation isn't bad. I don't have any real problems and I do have an enjoyable life and everything I need and more is handed to me. I just feel like I'm not living up to my full potential and I wanted to see what reddit thinks about it.