Im in love with this friend who hooked me up with her besty 4 years ago.

I have a very strange magical and stomach crunching crush on this girl who ive frequently been too close on and off due to our surroundings which might create havoc knowing that we both fancy each other secretly and we both have recently went through divorce and separation kind of stuff.

She's out of town for New year's with her girls for celebrations and I'm willing to propose her on her way back while taking her out on dinner but even if things go as I planned somehow this thing will be out in the group and I wouldn't be able to handle that since she's been into a relationship with one of my friend who I respect alot.

Just looking for some appropriate advice that could help..