Hey, im kinda new to this just wanted to vent

So i guess ill just start by saying that ive been with my girlfriend for 6 months and im honestly exhausted with being manipulated. All i do and want to do is shower her with love and affection but it's never enough. It's always the classic BPD reaction of "i hate you. Youre never there for me, please dont leave" which is followed by time where she almost tries to punish me by not seeing me even though shes the one who claims to "really need you right now" To make a long story short, after a fight where the cops we're called my father sat us down and told us we need a month away from each other. We're a week in and its already happening over the phone. (On the phone is the absolute most toxic aspect of our relationship) ive ordered food to her house and been there for her when she was struggling. But im the asshole because i wont let her totally wax my leg and when i called her before i went to sleep (on her request) she didnt wake up so thats my fault and i should "literally never call her again" like just fuck you, im so tired of being your emotional punching bag. Just because youre having a rough time doesnt mean you have to make my life hell. Anyways, thanks for reading my rant. Im talking to some professionals on how to handle this situation. Letting it out online feels good though.