Posting this on my first night of quitting
I just decided to quit smoking today. It's been my coping mechanism for years, but lately whenever I smoke I just beat myself up about how much time I'm wasting being high when I could be learning new hobbies, working on projects, learning a new skill, or what have you. Tonight is the first night I'm going without use and all I want is to smoke and crawl into my cozy stoner den and feel okay. But I realized I'm just sort of hiding from the world. I'm working out 4-5 days a week, attending college and getting good grades, I eat healthy and I have hobbies but... I'm stuck somewhere between wanting to lean on it and wanting to be completely done with it, and I don't have the willpower to only do it on certain days of the week. I was skipping out on online social stuff with friends, my days had a "scheduled" time I would smoke and I would usually end up staying up until like 5am completely alone and depressed and high while all of my friends are asleep. I have hobbies that require concentration so any time spent being high was time I couldn't dedicated towards those hobbies.
I don't really know if I can enjoy it anymore, but I feel like I want to use it. I threw out the 1/8th I just bought, along with my grinder which had like 4 years of kief stored in it and my pipes today. We'll see how it plays out...
Posted Feb 9, 2021, 9:40 AM UTC
Have a plan and know what to expect. It’s really important. I’m only on day 2 but have tried to quit so many times before. The difference now is that I have read, watched, and made a plan based on information. I feel like I have never been better prepped. It’s good to make the decision - a really important step - but I’ve failed before because I didn’t put in the work and tried to do it spontaneously. I feel good that I know what to expect and how to cope with it. The art is in the doing, of course, and it’s going to be a long road - but so worth it.
I appreciate your insight a lot, I'm definitely going to lay out a plan for myself. I've tried quitting before as well, usually past the first week is when I find it gets a lot easier. I took a 3 month break back in 2018, naturally all it took was that one time of buying it to get back in the habit so I'm going to do my best to make it stick this time.
I want to enjoy things again without feeling like I need to be high to do it. "Making dinner/picking up food? Better get high to really enjoy it. Watching a new movie? I bet it'd be great while high. Playing video games? Being high will definitely immerse me!" It's just a terrible cycle and I feel like I'm missing out on life because of it
I had convinced myself that everything was better - like everything, including being at work, driving, everything. LIES! I lied to myself so much. I get the mindset and it’s a comfort to hear that I’m not alone in lying to myself so convincingly. Keep going and best of luck.