This addiction is being supported by other things

I recently noticed something about my porn use. I've had many relapses that began with me laying on the bed aimlessly. At first i tried to avoid reddit on bed and so on, but ultimately i seem to be triggered by the sheer presence of my phone with me on bed. I tried far too long to "solve the issue" through nothing but "I'll try harder next time" or "It was bad luck".. Instead of sweet talking myself into making no changes whatsoever, i decided to buy a bedside lamp and stack a few books near me as a replacement for my phone.

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Trying to do this was not easy, in fact i only succeeded at it for a duration of 1 week or so. Safe to say, this simple habit change makes a lot of my relapse patterns irrelevant. The realization here is that my addiction is not acting independently on me. It's given power and support by some other strong habits.

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I delay my bathroom visits which makes me tense and sometimes mistakenly even horny, and i take my phone to bed almost every night, i neglect my daily habits which makes me feel guilty and lazy.

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These habits, i have to take them out one way or another - definitely not easy. The good part? Unlike the confusing patterns of relapse i suffer from, i feel like it's within my control to change these habits. And there's no way in hell that a change like this won't help with my addiction.