yeah, still here...i'm weak, i know..but i will die soon

i want to die. i will die. i need to die. i have to die. just..something stops me every time. don't know why. im weak i guess. wish i could just close my eyes and it happen. i will happen. i promise it will. just...need the right time i guess. i;m sorry i have failed.

EDIT: you know, i want this so bad. I am so ready. I have everything I need. Please, a little push to help me succeed in dying this time...please??? I need out...NOW!!!