ExMuslim, with lots of guilt.

Hello r/exmuslim,

Often times I find myself in limbo of whether I'm muslim or not. Like for the past 3-4 years. To me this means I'm really no longer muslim. I do feel guilty of this, I feel guilty that I dropped my beliefs, my love for a supposed Allah and his prophet Muhammad. It's strange, even now, when I see bashing on the prophet it pisses me off, even if I'm not a muslim. Anyhow, how does one get rid of this guilt? I tried herbing it off, tried drinking it off, but it never works for long.

Also, please don't show me "facts" or hateful opinions that's not necessary. I'm not saying that Islam is factually correct, I just think it's unnecessary to circle-jerk the matter.