I am a middle eastern with soo many constraints to achieving my goals AMAA

ok here it goes this is just a rant, i am a 25 year old middle eastern with a very alternative lifestyle, i lived in melbourne for 3 years to complete my education and then returned back to beirut to look for a job. i was shocked with the quality of life where one would earn an average salary of 700$ and spend 400$ to rent a room leaving 300$ for living expenses. obviously that option was not doable so i was forced to leave beirut to go live with my dad in kuwait to look for jobs here and unfortunately havn't found one till now due to the fact that im on a visit visa and their government is not allowing any foriegn workers in except for elite graduates with managerial experience. its been like that for two years. i have been stuck here with no job, with a pain in the ass dad and a herion addicted brother, i have been living alone for a long time so im finding it hard to get used to the situation. kuwait is a full blown muslim country with very strict radical laws that ristricts a persons social life to a bare minimum, no beers, no pubs, no women, no music, no raves, no life and most importantly in my case no cash. i am planning on leaving the middle east to start some where fresh. possibly back to melbs or somewhere in europe. all my work experience is hospitality based ( pubs resturaunts nightclubs ) and i also plan on promoting parties (raves), so career wise im fucked here with limited opportunities. i smoke dope, i drink, i take psychedelics, i love to party and that has been missing from my life for a long time. im not here to ask for cash but im just ranting. so my conclusion after long hours of thinking was to sell drugs in order to make a decent sum of money enough to get out of here and start some where fresh where i have more options to achieve my future goals. my parents act in a very profane manner towards my situation where they think that the reason why im in trouble is due to the fact that im not religious and that sort of annoys the hell out of me as i consider my self a straight up heretic individual with a very hedonistic approach towards life making me not believe a word they say. damnn...... im just speaking my mind folks. end of rant.