1-90 Journal

Just at the end of day 7 now, felt a sense of motivation that I didn't know I had about two days ago. Something just clicked and I was different, realized the extent of my jackass lazy fuck lifestyle the last few years and how much I've set myself back.

Deleted my huge collection of highly specifically chosen HD films. All of it, prolly 40 gigs or more.

Can't believe how lazy fapping makes me, even if its only 5-6 times a week.

EDIT ON DECEMBER 26:

I've been debating it with myself, and I'm thinking that I might not continue with nofap. I've come to realize that nofap gave me a placebo effect, leading me to believe it was helping me accomplish all these great things but it wasn't. That was all me. My porn habits have never been unhealthy, although one modification I will be making is only fapping right before bed. I've never been into anything freaky or strange, just vanilla banging with pretty ladies. I've never had ED or PE, and part of the reason I'm stopping nofap is because I know I would be a two pump chump with a woman after these 34 days. I'm only going to masturbate when it doesn't impede something else, and I will continue my self improvement streak on my own. Exercising self control and discipline is what I took from this experience, and I don't regret it one bit. Perhaps after returning to fapping I'll reconsider, but for now I think its not doing me any harm. I just used it as a scapegoat, got caught up in other peoples journals, and attributed my personal growth to it. When in reality I think I was just ready to man up myself, and stopping masturbation seemed like a good idea while at rock bottom. I'm going to continue with this until Jan 8, so I'll be thinking this over lots to ensure I'm making the right decision.