Dealing with guilt

When i was growing up, Jesus was my superhero. That guy was fuckin' AWESOME. He was kind, compassionate, charitable, self sacrificing, truly forgiving and my only friend. I still feel guilt about losing my faith ten years on and i miss having someone like that to "talk to". Its sort of like losing a friend except i decided to push him away. Does anyone else miss that sort of thing or am i just a schizophrenic moron? What can i do to lose this guilt?