Help.

I'm not about to go commit suicide so before everyone freaks out, understand that there is NO RUSH. But of course its been contemplated. What I ask of you reddit, is to see if anyone can convince me undeniably that living a full extent life is worth it. Something other than the standard, because I feel like I have heard every counter-argument yet none convince me. Again, don't think I'm about to kill myself, I promise you I will not.

Background: I'm 18 (yes i know, young..but still), I have been treated for depression at 13 and managed to get out of it, but its crept back and I have felt more depressed then ever. Currently I am on prescribed anti-depressants and have no will to see therapy because I have been to therapy countless times and it never helps. I go to friends and family for talking, so although my depression is secretive, those that are real close to me know about it and its full extent.

TL;DR Help