I hate everyone

Ok that's a lie. Kind of. But I'll keep saying hate anyway.

I hate everyone. I hate myself the most. I hate my family second. I hate my friends third. But I won't put everyone else in ranks. I'm horrible. I think. I haven't actually done anything horrible I just have a horrible personality. I think everyone hates me. I'm annoying and dumb and stupid and I can't stop being so rude. I'm lame and unfunny and everyone rolls their eyes at me and scolds me because I act like a bitch.

I do not care about my family. Fuck them. I honestly don't and no one understands. Why do I have to love them? Because we're related?? That's dumb. They're irritating and if I wasn't in this family and I met them I would be disgusted with them. No, they don't abuse me or anything, but do you really need people to do that to make you dislike them? I don't like them, I don't love them. I respect my arents because they care for me but that is it. They didn't raise me, the TV and computer raised me. They always complain about us not always being together but growing up they were always off doing their own shit! Their views are messed up and I'm glad they didn't trying to actually teach me things until we both knew it was too late. All they did was shove the bible in my face. Now I'm atheist. I'm thankful for my sisters because they give me things sometimes. I just see my family as just another group of people that I happen to have to live with them by law.

My friends... I don't know. I'm starting to hate them but I know there's no way I could replace them so I don't. They're boring. I'm bad, I know, since THAT'S the reason I'm backing away from them.But I think theyre starting to hate me too. They always are like ugh whenever I say stupid stuff. I think we're all only staying together for the same reason. I wish I could just go by alone, but I know I'd have to eventually need company. Not like "company" is great anyways, as I have no one to actually talk to. My journal is my only actually friend, but journals can't talk back. Wow that sentence was pathetic. I really hate being in high school.

That's not all I needed to say but I can't remember everything. I don't know if there's anything I should do and I'm not completely sure I want to change anything either.