Today my dream turned into a nightmare

Hey guys, so I was having suicidal thoughts a few years ago, and I got in a fight with my boss so I quit and the feelings subsided. I just got a great job recently and I thought it was my dream job. Lately I have been under a lot of scrutiny from my peers and the feelings are coming back.

Today in Seattle I threw 4 interceptions, and I don't think I can go on. Please help.