My mom just forced me out of the closet and I'm devastated. I got downvoted on r/LGBT... maybe you guys will just talk to me.

Got a call from my mother. I answered. She was in tears freaking out just screaming "WHY WHY WHY" over and over. When she finally calmed down, she informed me that I had left my shit logged in on my grandmother's computer so she of course decided to read through all my Facebook messages, including the ones between me and my fiancee.

The conversation went on a really long time but it involved her screaming at me that I'm going to Hell, calling me an abomination, saying that this was her worst nightmare, saying that she'd rather me be a murderer or an unwed father, saying that she didn't want to hear from me again until I could pay her back the $200 she lent me, which means I'll be spending my birthday familyless. I tried to tell her I was still her son and I still loved her and she just told me that was bullshit, and that she was going to call my dad and tell him, and my sister, and was going to go back inside at my grandparents' house and tell them as well.

I've been hysterical. I called my friend's parents who also happen to be pastors and know that I'm gay and she cried on the phone with me and told me that she didn't necessarily think it was "God's Plan" for my life but that didn't mean she couldn't love me, or love my fiancee, or even accept us for who we are. She said she would reach out to my mother and try to calm her down, and I told her that was a good plan since my mom probably needed someone in a religious position such as her to make her finally calm down.

I'm just cold and empty. My mother has said she doesn't want contact with me. She said to tell my boyfriend she hates him and never in her life wants to meet him, which means no real family. It means I'll be spending my birthday without my family (Wednesday), my graduation without my family (May), my first job, holidays...

I'm just at a loss. Good thing I have lots, and lots, and lots of beer.