Im drunk in a bar that conveniently has wifi and trying to make myself feel better. Any Ideas to help?

So my early severe depression where life seems to go no where has finally hit. I feel scorned and unwanted by friends, especially those who seem to bw going through something similiar. Ive recently been falling into drinking again which I had avoided like the plauge all year, but it seems to be the only thing to help. I've even dabbled in reefer once or twice within the month. Im going to lose my seasoanal job amnd was just fired from one of my other jobs. No one makes effort to do stuff. Im not really sure whats im saying. Am dizzy, was dizzy before the bar and drinking. Didnt want to wake up today at all. It was weird. My christian faith seems to be failing but there is a strong foundation that I wont try to extinguish myself like ive tried in the past. So im safe. What can reddit do to make me feel better? I know i;ll play skyrim all dizzy like... I have noooo idea what I just said.