Just a general question for atheist to help my understanding.

Hey, before I ask this question I just want to inform anybody reading this that I'm not judging you at all, and I'm not going to shove religion down your throat. Just want to know this answer so I can have a better understanding of this concept. Knowledge is key, right? :)

The question is: At one point did you believe in a religion but bad things happened in life were going wrong, where you turned to religion receiving no help from any 'higher being' and ultimately causing you to give up on said religion? This is why I am semi-atheist.

also, if that isn't why, then would you mind telling me why?

(sorry if this is the wrong place for this)