I feel empty.

I don't know how to make it stop. My ex broke/shattered/obliterated my heart in May. I've met this great girl. Seriously, the most beautiful, sweetest girl that has ever been interested in me. But, I don't want anything. I don't want anyone, but I really do care about her. And I really do think she's amazing. And it fucking pisses me off that if I had never met my ex, I'd be happily goo-goo eyed over this girl. I don't want my ex back. I'm not really all that mad anymore, or hurt. Now, it's more like. Numb, apatheic, disinterest with women entirely. I can't even get off. My entire sex drive is fucked.

The thing is. I know...I KNOW, that a year ago I'd have melted by this girl. I'm scared I don't have it in me to love again. Which is grossly pathetic and sappy, but it makes my stomach turn to think about it. I don't feel anything really. I worry a lot. I stress. But I don't really feel. I want to shake this before I lose a shot with this girl.